I have come too this conclusion:

If a guy I like has yet too see how great I am, then his loss.

I’m awesome! I know this. Why waste my time trying too get his attention?

The right one will come along.

But I am getting sick of his tardiness.

Soooo the last time I spammed the dash with Teen Wolf/Sterek posts I lost 8 followers.

So either you leave me now or you trek through my obsession for a few hours each day.

If you’re still with me now and after, Bless you, my loves.

so i just realized i like being alone, but i get lonely and am left with my own thoughts and that’s no good.

how is it that my own thoughts hurt me more than your actions

Let’s Talk About You

BASIC:

Name: Katelyn
Nickname(s): Kate
Gender: Female
Age: 21
Birthday: December 31

LIKES / DISLIKES:

Favorite Color(s): Purple; Aqua; Yellow.
Least Favorite Color: Umm…Orange.
Favorite Food: Hot Wings. Gyros.  Hummus.
Least Favorite Food: Peas.
Favorite Band/Artist: None.
Least Favorite Band/Artist: None.
Favorite Type of Movie: Romantic. comedies. Action.
Least Favorite Type of Movie: Horror.
One thing you can’t get enough of: Uhhhhh…
One thing you hate more than anything: Snakes.

LOVE LIFE:

Are you single? Yes.
Do you have a crush on anyone right now? Oh yes! Got it Bad.
Do you flirt a lot? I have no clue. Do’nt think I know how. haha
Sweetest thing you’ve ever gotten: A stuffed animal.
Do you believe in love at first sight? No.
Do you fall in love fast? No.
Do you ever make the first move? No.
Do you want to get married? Yes, I so do.

ARE YOU. .

A daydreamer? Yes.
Shy? Yes!
Talkative? Depending on the topic. I won’t be able to carry on a conversation for a very long time.
Energetic? I wouldn’t say so.
Happy? Over all, yes.
Depressed? No.
Caring? Yes.
Trustworthy? Yes, I’d say so.
Confident? Never.
Friendly? Yes! I try hard too be.
Sarcastic? At times.
Dependable? I try to be. I don’t think I’m completely dependable.
Adaptable? Yes.
Emotionally strong? Hmm. Going to say, yea. I Hide my emotion, soo..
Religious? Yes, not strongly.
Indecisive? At times.
Outgoing? Sometimes.
Nosy? I don’t like getting into other’s business. 
Lazy? Yes.
Artistic? Id say so.
Serious? Depends..
Thoughtful? Not as much as I like to be.
Considerate? I try to be.
Romantic? Not sure.
Obsessive? We all become obsessive over some things. 
Sincere? Yes
Tolerant? Very. I have a high tolerance for most things.

Katelyns Sobbing time:

Parts of: Blame it on the Rain: He is We.

“…My pain is knowing I can’t have you,
I can’t have you.

…Tell me am I crazy, or is this more than a crush?

I catch my breath,
The one you took the moment you entered the room.
My heart, it breaks at the thought of her holding you.

Maybe I’m alone in this,
But I find peace in solitude knowing,
If I had but just one kiss this whole room,
Would be glowing.
We’d be glowing,
We’d be glowing.

Does she, tell me, does she look at you the way I do,
Try to understand the words you say,
and the way you move?
Does she get the same big rush,
When you go in for a hug and your cheeks brush?
Tell me am I crazy, or is this more than a crush?
(More than a crush).”

Ugh. Once again I say: Having a crush it THE worst thing in the world. Especially when it began when I was, what? 15? 16? Thinking it was done, then BAM! it came back after I actually started spending time with the boy. 

*sigh* I need more insite/advice on this. So I know I’m not being stupid.

“If it were meant to be, it will be.”

I’m Doing this because.

• 1. Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it?

Haley? Yes.

• 2. Would you date an 18-year-old at the age you are now?

No.

• 3. When’s the last time you were aggravated and happy at the same time?

Saturday Night.

• 4. Would you ever smile at a stranger?

Yes. I do often.

• 5. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are?

Not that I know of.

• 6. Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today?

Today? Nope.

• 7. What exactly are you wearing right now?

Covenant College T-Shirt. Aqua underwear. Basketball shorts.

• 8. How often do you listen to music?

Everyyyyy Day.

• 9. Do you wear jeans or sweats more?

Jeans.

• 10. Do you think your life will change dramatically before 2014?

I do not think so.

• 11. Are you a social or an antisocial person?

Eh, I would say a mix of both.

• 12. Have you ever kissed someone whose name begins with the letter ‘A’?

I want to say I might have kissed Amber on the cheek at one point in time…

• 13. What about ‘R’?

Again, Rachel…It’s possible. And my dad’s name is Rick, soo.

• 14. Can you drive a stick shift?

No.

• 15. Do you care if people talk badly about you?

Not sure. I don’t think I do, but really depends on what they say.

• 16. Are you going out of town soon?

Not planing on it. :/

• 17. When was the last time you cried?

April 27th.

• 18. Have you ever told someone you loved them?

Yes.

• 19. If you could change your eye color, would you?

No.

• 20. Is there a boy who you would do absolutely everything for?

Not sure. leaning too a ‘NO’ at the moment.

• 21. Name something you dislike about the day you’re having.

Mom having a hard day.

• 22. Is it cute when guys kiss you on your forehead?

Yes. Yes, it is.

• 23. Are you dating the last person you talked to?

No.

• 24. What are you sitting on right now?

A sofa.

• 25. Does anyone regularly (other than family) tell you they love you?

Yes. My best friend, Haley.

• 26. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?

Only everyone I had a crush on.

• 27. Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night?

Text: Haley. Talk: Mother.

• 28. Do you get a lot of colds?

Oddly enough, never. *Knocks on Wood*

• 29. Where is the shirt you are wearing from?

Covenant College.

• 30. Does anyone hate you?

I doubt it.

• 31. Do you have any empty alcohol bottles hidden somewhere in your room?

I wouldn’t hide them. Mom doesn’t care.

• 32. Do you like watching scary movies?

HELL NO!

• 33. Do you want your tongue pierced?

Not at all.

• 34. If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be?

Hmmm…when I was 19, maybe?

• 35. Did you have a dream last night?

Yes.

• 36. When was the last time you told someone you loved them?

Today.

• 37. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?

I really do hope so.

• 38. Do you think someone has feelings for you?

HA! Bahahaha!! No.

• 39. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?

Not really. Unless it’s the 2 people I’m texting thinking about texting me back…

• 40. Did you have a good day yesterday?

It was okay. Not amazing.

• 41. Think back 2 months ago; were you in a relationship?

I was not.

• 42. In the next 48 hours, will you hang out with a girl?

Yes.

• 43. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you?

No.

• 44. What’s the best part about school?

I don’t go to school.

• 45. Do you have any pictures on your Facebook?

Yes….

• 46. Do you ever pass notes to your friends in school?

I did, yes.

• 47. Do you replay things that have happened in your head?

Always.

• 48. Were you single over the last summer?

I was indeed.

• 49. Is your life anything like it was two years ago?

No.

• 50. What are you supposed to be doing right now?

Sleeping would be nice.

• 51. Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with?

Text: Josh; No. Talk: Dad; Never.

• 52. Are you nice to everyone?

Always.

• 53. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?

Yes.

• 54. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat?

Of course.

• 55. Are you good at hiding your feelings?

Very well. I do it all the time.

• 56. Do you think you like someone?

I know I do. And I hate it.

• 57. Have you kissed someone whose name starts with a ‘J’?

Not that I can recall.

• 58. Do you prefer to be friends with girls or boys?

I like a mix of the two.

• 59. Has anyone of your friends ever seen you cry?

Yes.

• 60. Do you hate anyone?

I do not.

• 61. How’s your heart?

I haven’t had a check-up for a while, but I’m assuming it’s okay.

• 62. Is there something that happened in your past that you hate talking about?

Yes.

• 63. Have you ever cried over a guy?

I have. Like a stupid girl.

• 64. Who is probably talking a load of crap about you right now?

Nobody.

• 65. Are your toenails painted pink?

They are not.

• 66. Will your next kiss be a mistake?

Who knows?

• 67. Girls love it when boyfriends cry; correct?

Depends on the reason.

• 68. Have your pants ever fallen down in public?

Nope.

• 69. Who was the last person you were on the phone with?

My dad.

• 70. How do you look right now?

Like I’ve been lazy all day and about to go to bed.

• 71. Do you have someone you can be your complete self around?

Yes.

• 72. Can you commit to one person?

I can. I will.

• 73. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?

No.

• 74. Have you ever felt replaced?

Possibly. Not sure.

• 75. Did you wake up cranky?

No.

• 76. Are you a jealous person?

I can be.

• 77. Are relationships ever worth it?

 I hope they are.

• 78. Anyone you’re giving up on?

Thinking about it.

• 79. Currently wanting to see anyone?

Yes, so much so.

• 80. Name something you have to do tomorrow?

I have to post something for work. Clean the house, and snag a man.

• 81. Last person you cried in front of?

Rachel?

• 82. Is there someone you will never forget?

Yup.

• 83. Do you think the person you have feelings for is protective of you?

I can see them be that way, in a friendly manner.

• 84. If the person you wish to be with were with you, what would you be doing right now?

Cuddling on the sofa. Listening to the rain. Smooching. Laughing. Just being together.

• 85. Are you over your past?

I think so…?

• 86. Have you ever liked one of your best friends of the opposite sex?

Not sure if they would be consider my ‘best’ friend.

• 87. Is there anyone you can tell EVERYTHING to?

Yes.

• 88. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept?

I’ve never been in love.

• 89. So, the last person you kissed just happens to arrive at your door at 3AM; do you let them in?

Maybe.

• 90. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated?

Yes.

• 91. Will you be in a relationship in 2 months?

Who knows? Not I.

• 92. Is there anyone you know with the name Michael?

Yes.

• 93. Have you ever kissed a Matthew?

I have not.

• 94. Were you in a relationship in January? How was it going?

Nope.

• 95. Were you happy with the person you liked in March?

You can say that.

• 96. Don’t tell me lies, is the last person you texted attractive?

Josh? Yeah. He looks like a rugged Ryan Gosling.

• 97. Who do you have texts from?

Josh M; Haley: Amber; Rachel; Granny; Angie; Elliot; Mother.

• 98. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say?

I don’t know. Nothing at all? OR confess everything.

• 99. Have you ever kissed someone older than you?

Yes.

• 100. Who’s in your profile picture with you?

FB: My best friend, Haley.

• 101. Ever kissed under fireworks?

Not yet.

• 102. Has anybody ever given you butterflies?

All the time.

have you ever re-read a book, and stop at a certain point because up till then, everything is perfect, but you know the next page will bring on the shit fukerry..